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why is it... [Aug. 23rd, 2005|01:50 pm]
[black heart |aggravatedaggravated]

that i cannot go one day without a headache the size of kansas and a stomach ache from hell???? dammit.
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new york cityyyyyy bitches! [Aug. 9th, 2005|05:48 pm]
[black heart |confusedconfused]

im leaving tomorrow morning to go to NYC to see Against Me! with maggie, corey, and matt, but we're meeting up with fuji and matty. we're spending the weekend at some hotel we are going to get drunk at and trash, and then me and maggie are going to go shopping. im excited beyond belief. i need out of this little hole, even if it is for two days. besides...what more could i ask for? against me!, maggie, fuji, matty, bEEEEEEr, and a hotel room? IN NYC?! hahaha. nothing. except maybe some sexy man with nice tattoos......hhhmmm....? (if you know what i wanted for christmas you know what i want in nyc) im not sure how well s.s. betty (my lovely car) is going to handle this little trip, but we'll see. shes taking me to florida next month......so...we'll see.

im getting a little brother or sister in april. crazy huh? not to mention...we sold our house, so im moving, and my dad is getting married at some point in the future. ive got a lot on my little plate...im a little stressed, but im glad to see that mostly everyone is happy at the moment (except me..but thats not the control of anyone but myself and my surroundings *cough*thistown*cough*). its just all so new. i kind of like it. i cant wait to dress my new sibling up in little punk rock baby clothes, and i cant wait to force him or her into listening to the clash, and rancid, and the sex pistols. ahhh...hahaha! theres going to be a mini-haley!!!!

yea..shits been crazy.....very crazy...theres too much to sum up at once. so im not even going to bother. basically this:
-got more tattoos
-went to tennessee
-went to indiana for staceys wedding
-got laid
-went to RI, NH, and ME to see Against Me!
-went to the beach! (in ME after the show and sang "beginning in an ending" changed the words to Atlantic, not Pacific, and jess and i ran into the water (if you love AM! you'll get it))
-got my heart broken by someone who i thought was one of my best friends
-got wasted. alot.
-hung out with maggie. alot.
-got a dog named Pumpkin Seed
-got a car (S.S. Betty)
uuuhhh...thats about it...there were less exciting more dramatic and sad things in between there but i save the drama. its lame.

im done now. im going to go get ready for nyc cause damn! i really need to shave!!!

"All is quite except for this song, so maybe while im not together i can feel like im not alone...."

Every day has a beginning and ending
just like every life has a start and finish.
July is gone like the gasoline it took to make the circle again.
Florida to Florida, by the way of America.
Cocaine and soda
playing Tetris in our underwear.
We take turns reading letters
I read the haiku and you move your nails across my legs
In your arms, I don't know who I am
taking all I know about nihilism and trying to build it into a life.
With your thought in mind, I walk the streets down to the shore and I sink into the Pacific. This is evrything up to now ending. Ending.

It was nice to believe for a while.
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well fuck me sideways! [Aug. 4th, 2005|07:35 pm]
[black heart |confusedconfused]

i havent done this in a while.

just thought id say..HEY IM NOT DEAD! as far as i know...although...i have been craving flesh lately...and i was bit the other day..by some strange looking half dead man in an alley way...hmmm....
i dont feel like writing much at the moment..so here...

I gave up on you a long time ago
How can you blame me?
We made plans to meet and you never showed
You kept me waiting
They said everything would work out just fine
They said you'd help me
But as it turns out it was all a lie
And they're off someplace far away laughing at me

You've been there for me one time in my life
But it didn't matter
You came and went so fast all my hope
And faith in you shattered
And now here I sit alone in this room
No one to confide in
You watched all my dreams come apart at the seams
You laughed, you left, you waited in hiding

Bless me dark father I have sinned
I've done it before and I'll do it again
Cause it keeps me warm, and makes you smile
You've been beneath me all the while
Hell? Yessss.

You gave up on me along time ago
I can't say I blame you
I rejected the faith in your holy rays
Is what it comes down to
They said everything would work out just fine
I just went crazy
But I'm better now having a good time
Being selfish, and drunken, and vulgar, and lazy (thats right bitches)

Bless me dark father I have sinned
I've done it before and I'll do it again
Cause it keeps me warm, and makes you smile
You've been beneath me all the while

Bless me dark father I can't win
Without you I'm as good as dead
Cause you keep me warm, you make me smile
You've been on my shoulder all the while...

Whispering sweet nothings
Whispering sweet nothings
Whispering sweet nothings
You've been whispering sweet nothings....

everyone knows ive ALWAYS had a soft spot for matt skiba and his musical talent. so fuck off. yes.
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i just want a lover just like any other.. [Jan. 14th, 2005|04:06 am]
[black heart |confusedconfused]

and what do i get??


what do i get?


i need a damn 40oz bitches.
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NEW YORK CITY! NEW YORK CITY IS....dead? [Jan. 11th, 2005|06:19 pm]
[black heart |okayokay]
[LETDOWN |cassies sister playing piano.]

NO! HA! me and cassie went to NYC for new years and it was afuckingmazing. we got to bowery and walked around for a while, went to st.marks, that was crazy shit. i was in heaven...i spent all my money...sad..huh? we saw the rebels @ CBGBs. that was a blast, i enjoyed their set (except for them NOT playing daddy was a drunk). they were all pretty wasted, especially bop, i forgive that because it was new years and had i had alcohol id've been completely blitzed. yea! and you know who i saw? COREY motha fuckin HARTMAN!!!!!!!! hes doing well. im glad. we decided to stay with fuji that night cause the fuckin ho's hanging out with RCR made me want to murder then slit my throat. (ill never understand why guys like girls like that...theyre easy maybe?) we went to some house parties. then heard gunshots in brooklyn.
woke up to these stupid ass bells. so we went on the roof of fujis apartment for cigerettes. the view was spectacular, the air, amazing. it was like 60degrees. and alls i can say is that it was the most beautiful, amazing thing ive ever seen and felt in my life. the view..cloves..2 good pals..and THE MOTHER FUCKING VIEW. that was the thing that blew me away the most. (i was thrilled about the weather too) we basically got the NYC tour from fuji, china town, some random places, the lower east side, soho (where we saw Mike from green day with his damn wife!), time square.
THE CHELSEA HOTEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah. that was the best thing of the trip. to know that i was walking down the street sid vicious used to walk down stoned and fiending..made me so excited. i was running around talking british asking for my sidney. it was funny.

so thats all.

except that:
*work sucks.
*theres no good shows.
*i love my friend(s).
*80s nite rules.
*boys are lame.
*i have a nice ass.
*im horny
*i go to tennesse to see kyle on the 28th.
*im diseased.
*and i need a new tattoo.

thats been my life after the new year. it was so amazing to know that i was NO WHERE near monson when it became 2005. i was with good friends, my favorite rock stars (it brings a tear to my eye calling them that), damn good music, and fucking ....THE CITY man. gives me hope that this year will be something new.
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yes, [Dec. 30th, 2004|06:40 pm]
You are Elizabeth Bathory. (The bloodcountess)
Legend tells us that you, this very rich,
beautiful and high born woman tortured and
murdered some 650 young women and bathed in
their warm blood to keep yourself beautiful.
In some stories, it is said you have drank thier
blood as well. You were a sexual sadist on a
grand scale.
Ah vanity is your downfall. For shame!

Which Imfamous criminal are you?
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the cure are just like heaven [Dec. 25th, 2004|08:13 pm]
[black heart |sadsad]

"show me show me show me how you do that trick
The one that makes me scream she said
The one that makes me laugh she said
And threw her arms around my neck
Show me how you do it
And I promise you I promise that
I’ll run away with you
I’ll run away with you
Spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed her face and kissed her head
And dreamed of all the different ways I had
To make her glow
Why are you so far away? she said
Why won’t you ever know that I’m in love with you
That I’m in love with you

Daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe her name
I opened up my eyes
And found myself alone alone
Alone above a raging sea
That stole the only girl I loved
And drowned her deep inside of me"

i read this just now and i made myself sad. *sigh*
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"merry christmas from texas ya'll!" [Dec. 25th, 2004|05:43 pm]
[black heart |awakefull.]

christmas!!! my least favorite holiday of the year.
these were the only two things i asked for for xmiss:
tom gable

i didnt get either. i guess i must have been naughty. i was kind of hoping to wake up and see tom standing there naked with that silly grin on his face and a bow in place of underwear...but i suppose that was a silly dream. i did get the AM! dvd. perhaps ill just touch myself and watch that. haa. haaa.

sooo merry christmas fuckers! and happy new year.

i got my license! that was exciting.
saw LIZARD! that was exciting too. i missed her very much! new years eve me and cassie are going to see river city rebels in NYC anyone who's up for it let me know. we're going to dance the house down.

80s nite this week was fuuunnn. i went with cassie (i always do!) and we danced with travis and nate..which amuses me always..travis's dancing especially. i love those boys! and i love any excuse to look cute. but i have decided ive gotten fatter. which makes me so sad. so now i have to dance like crazy and eat healthy. haha. DANCE MOTHER FUCKER DANCE!

im really not suprised kyle lied to me about having cancer. it makes me sad, but, everyone said so, but he never admited it. i finally got him to. im glad i was the last fucking person he told it was a lie. i just cant believe he let me think this entire time he was sick. whatever. like he said "its all water under the bridge now" im glad he isnt dying at least..but i could never lie to a good friend of mine about something like that. oh well. fuck it.

my dad and i are going to see "darkness" so im going to make like a fetus and head out now. have fun fuckers!

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i thought this was funny. [Dec. 20th, 2004|01:21 am]

Your LJ Perfect Date
LJ Username
Choose a random word
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You have dinner at your date's place
Afterwards you call the cops
Your date asks you to dance
You say I love you
Chance you will get lucky - 76%
This fun quiz by akasha82 - Taken 238013 Times.
New - Kwiz.Biz Astrology and Horoscopes

(i stole yer word mr.brandonnnnn. HA!)
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everyones a liar and i think im BURNING OUT [Dec. 19th, 2004|01:03 pm]
[black heart |bitchyfuckin pissed]

im so sick of people lying.

especially about big things.

im done fussin


fuck you.
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